Travel Visa


I have spent the better part of the summer trying to get all of my required documentation together to be able to apply for a tourist travel Visa to India in anticipation of returning to India in December of 2016. Back in 2011 or 2012 I began looking into applying for a Person of Indian … Continue reading Travel Visa

Driven by Guilt


I've been planing on going to India this winter for at least a few months now. It has been a stressful process and I've done a pretty good job of procrastinating about the important things like determining what I'm going to be doing while there. The idea really solidified itself after a few weeks of … Continue reading Driven by Guilt

Notice: Illien Adoptions International, Inc. – Accreditation Cancelled


About two weeks ago Dr. F notified me that Illien Adoptions International, Inc. had their accreditation officially cancelled, after having it suspended in 2014. SOC SEAD also had its Indian license revoked temporarily in 2014. Here is the official text from the Council on Accreditation (COA): Notice: Illien Adoptions International, Inc. "August 10, 2016 The … Continue reading Notice: Illien Adoptions International, Inc. – Accreditation Cancelled

Black Lives Matter


Alton Sterling, Philando Castile, Laquan McDonald, Tamir Rice, Amadou Diallo, Eric Gardner, Trayvon Martin, Sandra Bland, Freddie Gray, Jamar Clark, John Crawford III, Walter Scott...and the count stretches back and back and forward and forward. Find a system, politician or organization to pressure for reform. State sanctioned racism and state sanctioned killing are nothing new, but … Continue reading Black Lives Matter

Daughter of the Ganges


There are others who have gone ahead of me, scouting, getting lost, running into demons and in some cases fighting them off and in others retreating in search of paths easier to travel. We take different perspectives to life. Our stories are like two  rivers dancing, intertwined one moment and heading in opposite directions in … Continue reading Daughter of the Ganges

4 years


Its been 4 year since I started writing and within the last two months I have done more to help myself process than in the previous 27 years. I started out writing, reading and trying to expose myself to others' stories. When I began I just needed to know I wasn't along asn an adoptee. … Continue reading 4 years

“Calcutta is my Mother”


I sometimes stumble across stories of other Indian Transracial Adoptees who have gotten some press, usually because they are in some stage of searching. This most recent story is being made into the movie "Calcutta is my Mother" which from the short trailer: https://vimeo.com/168535931 seems less about the act of searching for birth/first family than an … Continue reading “Calcutta is my Mother”

No Progress


No progress. I just haven't done anything in a few months. I have been busy. There is always some excuse though so it doesn't really matter what it is. I hope to get back on the Search during May. It is so easy to get distracted/suppress these feelings and just push things off. It isn't … Continue reading No Progress

I wonder…


I wonder if my parents ever think of me. I wonder if they love each other. I wonder if they ever loved each other. I wonder if my dad has patchy facial hair. I wonder if my mom's eyelashes are dark and beautiful. I wonder if they are my parents. I wonder if they walk … Continue reading I wonder…

Stories


I have been trying to stories of other Indian adoptees who have searched to try to gain some perspective on what it takes. I have found a few stories and have posted questions in a few different FB groups to see what kind of support can be found there. Some general thoughts are that there … Continue reading Stories